Dammit, it changed my colors again! Oh well, the words were a darker color and the blue filigree a brownish I was going to turn green. Although this actually is pretty too. So, we are going for a New Orleans theme right? "The Big Easy" should take after it's name. I'm not sure what this is missing though...and I'm too tired to think of it. Can you?

One hell of a day...

This is what my desk looked like all day today! For the first time in like forever I worked over, finishing paperwork and pushing pencils.  It was actually nice. 3 hours later when I reflected...

what's happening?

I've got a lotta things to do tonight

I'm so sick of making lists, of things I'll never finish

I've lived here for the last twelve years

Since early 1995 all my shit has been in boxes

.

But if I had a little more time to kill

I'd settle every little stupid thing

Yeah, you'd think that I would

.

But I'm too tired to go to sleep - tonight

And I'm too weak to follow dreams tonight

.

For the first time in a long time I can say

That I wanna try

To get better - And overcome each moment

In my own way

.

I wonder if I'll ever lose my mind

I tried hard for a while but then I kinda gave up

Winter is a killer when the sun goes down

I'm really not as stubborn as I seem

Said the knuckle to the concrete

.

But I'm too tired to go to sleep -tonight

And I'm too weak to follow dreams tonight

.

For the first time in a long time I can say

That I wanna ty

To get better and overcome each moment

In my own way

.

I'm not saying that I'm giving up

I'm just trying not to think as much as I used to

'Cause never is a lonely little messed up word

Maybe I'll get it right some day

.

For the first time in a long time I can say

That I wanna try

I feel hopeless for the most part

But I'm learning to open my eyes

.

And the sad truth of the matter is I'll never get over it

But I'm gonna try

To get better and overcome each moment

In my own way

.

I so wanna get back on track

And I'll do whatever it takes

Even if it kills me.

.

-mcs

I'm sleepy.

Tomorrow I will wake up at 6:45 and make it to the gym by 7:00. Then I will work out until 7:45 and be home by 8:00. I'll change and be ready to work at work by 9:00 and stay there until 7:00. At 7:00 I will be on my way to Ben's parents graphic shop to finalize the product for the first prototype for Since When. I hope to God I make it home by 8:00 so kiss Aiden goodnight.

Working Mom isn't so glamourous tomorrow.

I'm already sad. (But siked about my summer ass!)