Hello Woman I Love

Okay, so I have had favorite photos of you before but JESUS CHRIST! I love love love this one! I have been looking at it for days and I think I will print it out and put it on my dresser, next to my jewellery, so I can see it everyday. It's the perfect embodyment of you! The way you chew the nail on your thumb and cover it with the other hand, the pearls that so gracefully line your next and add daintyness to your strong Italian features... the sunglasses that look SO good on you and the most beautiful haircut I think you have EVER had, and don't even get me started on the way navy blue makes the tone of your skin look sunkissed and flawless. 1000 words indeed

so much

what's happening?

I've got a lotta things to do tonight

I'm so sick of making lists, of things I'll never finish

I've lived here for the last twelve years

Since early 1995 all my shit has been in boxes

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But if I had a little more time to kill

I'd settle every little stupid thing

Yeah, you'd think that I would

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But I'm too tired to go to sleep - tonight

And I'm too weak to follow dreams tonight

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For the first time in a long time I can say

That I wanna try

To get better - And overcome each moment

In my own way

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I wonder if I'll ever lose my mind

I tried hard for a while but then I kinda gave up

Winter is a killer when the sun goes down

I'm really not as stubborn as I seem

Said the knuckle to the concrete

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But I'm too tired to go to sleep -tonight

And I'm too weak to follow dreams tonight

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For the first time in a long time I can say

That I wanna ty

To get better and overcome each moment

In my own way

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I'm not saying that I'm giving up

I'm just trying not to think as much as I used to

'Cause never is a lonely little messed up word

Maybe I'll get it right some day

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For the first time in a long time I can say

That I wanna try

I feel hopeless for the most part

But I'm learning to open my eyes

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And the sad truth of the matter is I'll never get over it

But I'm gonna try

To get better and overcome each moment

In my own way

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I so wanna get back on track

And I'll do whatever it takes

Even if it kills me.

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-mcs